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Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
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it's been a while since i've ben in here. wow what a night. i played poker tonight and wound up winning about $180.00. i was on a hot streak.
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Wednesday, October 16th, 2002
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i got to chat with Mistress Jen last night. i always enjoy that. it was good to hear that she found a job. i hope that she is able to find one that she will really be able to enjoy.
i bowled tonight in my wednesday night league. my team did pretty good. and i bowled about avg.
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Monday, September 30th, 2002
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| Time: | 6:38 pm. |
| Mood: |  tired. |
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i've been fighting a damned cold for the last few days and today i took off from work. i set up an id on bondage.com under the name of goodboyforu. Mistress Jen is hoping that i am able to find someone close to me. i've been looking but so far with no results.
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Monday, September 23rd, 2002
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| Time: | 6:28 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. |
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i had an interesting weekend. my softball team had their season ending party and i proceeded to have to many screwdrivers and wound up being quite intoxicated. at about 7:00 pm i went to my car to sleep it off and the next thing i knew i had woken up at 12:30 am still in my car. i had a good time though sunday i just took it easy all day.
Mistress Jen had me set up a profile on bondage.com. She wants me to hopefully find someone closer to me that i will be able to have a real life relationship with. i have mixed emotions about that because i view her as my Mistress and to give that to someone else will not be easy. i know that she wants me to expand and grow and i know that whatever happens, we will always be friends. i hope she approves of the profile.
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Monday, September 16th, 2002
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| Time: | 8:36 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. |
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i'm another year older. woo hoo! my birthday was on sunday and i turned 37. funny i don't feel a day over 36.
on saturday i played golf with some friends. even though i didn't play well i had a good time. the summer is winding down so i don't know how many more times i will get to play before the weather gets too cold. on sunday i went fishing with my Aunt and my Godson. it rained pretty much the whole time but we did catch fish, so i had a good time.
Mistress Jen has been having computer problems and has not had her PC at home so we haven't had much time online together recently. i miss her and i think about her often. hopefully we will get to spend some time together soon.
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Wednesday, September 11th, 2002
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| Time: | 11:45 pm. |
| Mood: |  sad. |
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i am saddened today as i think back to what happened a year ago today. i've been listening to the memorials toady on the radio and watching them on the TV and it makes me weep to see and hear the stories of the lives that will be forever changed by those events.
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Friday, September 6th, 2002
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i haven't seen Mistress online for a few days. i miss her when i don't get to chat with her.
my little town has had some excitement here over the last few weeks. we've have our own little murder mystery going on involving a local couple who own one of the bars in town.
i went to the movies tonight and saw the new Mel Gibson film "Signs". it was a pretty good flick.
today i got the chance to help out some young ladies who had a dead battery in their car. it wasn't a big deal but it felt really good to be able to help them.
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Tuesday, September 3rd, 2002
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| Time: | 9:57 pm. |
| Mood: | grateful. | | Music: | the movie Top Gun is on. |
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i spoke with Mistress Jen tonight. She was upset with me for not being obedient to her and she was totally right. i have not been faithful in updating my journal. Yesterday she had me find a switch for what i had envisioned would be an intense whipping but she was merciful and did not make me use it on myself. i am grateful for that. She has however not allowed me to masturbate tonight. She also wants me to update at least once every 3 days so i will do my best not to let her down. i love her and want to obey her.
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Thursday, August 8th, 2002
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| Time: | 11:17 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. |
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i spoke with Misstress last night. She was concerned about today because she was going to meet with her Sir to be punished. I hope that it wasn't to severe.
We've been tring to hook up on cam but my system seems to lock up all the time so it has been frustrating. i look forward to when we will be able to spend some time together
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| Time: | 11:52 pm. |
| Mood: | tired. |
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it has been an exhausting weekend. i played in a softball tournament and my team had to play 3 games in the heat and humidity. we won 1 and lost 2. today i went to binghampton with my Aunt and met up with some relatives for a party. i had fun.
i got my webcam the other day and i am looking forward to having some fun with it. i hope that Mistress will be pleased by what she gets to see.
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i got my new webcam yesterday and was finally able to get it to work tonight. Mistress got to see me on cam and i showed her my cock and balls. i look forward to exposing myself for whatever Mistress wants to see
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i found out that yesterday morning at about 10:00 am i lost my grandfather. He was a good man and i will miss him very much. There is a big ache in my heart today. He was 86.
He was the only father i have ever had since my real father left my mother and me before i was born. My grandfather did all the things that you would expect a dad to to when i was growing up. He taught me how to hunt and fish. When i was growing up i used to look forward to fishing with him. i always thought that he was the greatest person in the world when i was a kid. Even when i grew up and realized that he was not perfect, i still thought that he was the greatest. i'm getting a little teary eyed now thinking about how he is gone and that puts an heir of finanality to this somehow. i know that the memories will still linger and they are very important to me.
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Wednesday, July 24th, 2002
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It has been a while since i've been in here. Mistress would like me to start up again so i will begin again to write in this journal. It is not easy fo me to do this but i want to be obedient and i also want to please Mistress so i will do this. i know that this is good for me and it will help me to grow and it will also open and expose my inner self more for Mistress to see which when i think about it, enhances my submissiveness. It will be a discipline that i will work on.
Mistress has also informed me that i will be given daily tasks to be carried out. i just hope that i can do my best.
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It's been a few days since i have been in here to update. i haven't been feeling well over the last few days so i haven't been on-line much but i am back now.
I haven't been able to spend time with Mistress Jen and i miss her very much. i hope that i get to spend time with her tonight.
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| Time: | 9:58 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. |
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i'm just sitting her not doing much. I think i might make it an early night
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| Time: | 11:43 pm. |
| Mood: | disappointed. |
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i feel that i have dissappointed Mistress. She wants me to get a webcam and i want to get one to. I just hope that she will be patient with me. i hope to get one this week.
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| Time: | 11:48 pm. |
| Mood: | tired. | | Music: | TV is on. |
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I had bowling tournament but i should have stayed home because i didn't bowl well. I got home around 11:00 tonight which is later then i thought. There doesn't seem to be much going on tonight, i hope that i get a chance to chat with Mistress Jen tonight sometime
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| Time: | 12:27 am. |
| Mood: | concerned. |
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I spoke with Mistress tonight when i got home from my poker game. It is always a treat to be able to chat with her but tonight she was not her usual self. She is dealing with a lot of things in her life and i just wish that there was something i could do to ease her situation. I care about her and i want her to be happy.
I am also concerned that i not become a pest in her life. I just hope that i don't become to overbearing.
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| Time: | 11:02 pm. |
| Mood: |  enthralled. |
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I spent some time on-line with Mistress Jen last night. When we were finished both of my inner thighs were a lot redder and warmer then when we had begun. Mistress explained to me that i will need to feel the pain to appreciate her control over me. It is a reminder to me of the pleasure she gives me. And i was captivated by her control over me.
We discussed the importance of safe words and that i need to express to Mistress how i feel and she is right about that.
Her dominance and control over me grows each day. I can envision myself as her complete and total slave someday to a point where i would do anything she said and would obey her every command without question.
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| Time: | 10:05 pm. |
| Mood: | excited. |
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i had a nice weekend. i got a chance to spend some time with my godson, we went to see the movie Spiderman saturday night and he spent the night with me. We had a nice time.
Mistress Jen has given me an assignment to find a story that describes all the things that i would like for her to do to me. She expects this by Monday evening and i hope that i can find one.
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